Tatoeba Ame ga Futtanara

Also known as: 例えば雨が降ったなら, Ma raison de vivre

by Uka Kasai

After his business partner stole his money, Kuga's standing on the roof. He can't get up the courage to jump, so the hunger takes over eventually. He thinks about his first love and finally gives up to kill himself. Instead, he tries to find his first love, a boy called Mitsuru. With the help of a detective, Kuga finds him... in a strip club in the slums of the city! A naive man, at the bottom of his life, unemployed and divorced, and a former handsome guy: the love story of two forty-year-olds! (Source: Oakla Shuppan, translated) Note: Includes one extra chapter.